The Newest Memeber.

So I have been dealing with my D.I.D for over the past 8 years now building up a nice little family of alters in order to keep my sanity in tact. Last week, on one of my normal visits to my therapist a new alter decided to make himself apparent. His name is Mickey, he is 20 years old and is gay. He's the only other male alter I have and then you add in the five girls I have now bringing my number to eight (including myself.) The thing that worries me is the fact that I have not had anything reallly dramatic happen to me in the past year. Yes I exspirence the normal stress of a college student and the stress everyone generally feels. I am on three different kinds of medicine, Wellbutrin, Lexapro, and Thorazine with the Wellbutrin being the latest addition to the mix. I am beginning to wonder if that medicine had anything to do with the on-coming of Mickey. Three weeks before Mickey I started to feel more depressed about nothing and began beating myself up mentally so that could be another contribution.
HoshiMouse HoshiMouse
18-21, F
1 Response Dec 9, 2012

Sometimes I worry about the same thing. I got my Alters as a result of some horrible abuse and torment from my mother and peers at school. But now, I live with my father who is wonderful, and I go to a better school, and I am liked, but I still have my alters. And I keep making more. True, the new ones I create on a whim tend to fade out within a couple of days, but I don't know why they keep coming up...is it just because I am stressed over my last High School year? That plus boredom, maybe? I don't know...but sometimes it worries me. I have no reason to be making more, or to have the ones I have had (But let's face it, I'm never getting rid of them...) and yet I create more and keep my old ones as well...I just don't know...