Hi... No Longer Want To Hide In Silence..

Recently diagnosed with DID.
It's a relief and a curse sometimes.
Stressful work place environment makes it worst
i no longer want to feel like a freak because of this condition

hoping to find others that understand how hard it is to operate
in a world of singletons.

sweetlotus sweetlotus
36-40, F
1 Response Mar 7, 2010

I understand your frustration. I was diagnosed in Nov and I am trying to find my way, learning who we are and why we are where we are in this point of of my life, if that makes sense. I find that being a multiple is a blessing, a gift. If it were not for my alters I can't imagine where I would be or if I would even still be....<br />
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My alters helped me to get through points in my life that I could not see my way and they are helping get through still today. My alters are so much a part of me and yet I am not able to explain how or why to those around me, those outside me. <br />
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I don't want to feel different however when I find myself in different voices and people looking at me saying you are not yourself...again; it is difficult. My alters are finding their OWN voices and wanting to voice their own...opinions, I guess or let themselves out, I just not sure. This is a gift but also......something uneasy. I don't want to feel different but I am and that is not necessarily a bad thing. <br />
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We are not freaks. We are just different.