Seperation ...My parents separated last year ... even though i was expecting it i found it hard to deal with , it had already happened a few times in the past but i was to young to remember , my dad walked out on us , my older sister and brother had already moved out so it was just me left to pick up the pieces , it was really hard .. I used to have to come home everyday to find my mum on the floor crying and saying she wanted to die.. She had to go on a lot of anti depressants and anxiouty tablets , so it was if she wasn't even there sometimes , so in a lot of ways i had to step up mature , look after myself and my mum , a year from now shes stil not over it , and in an even worse position , she is torturing herself and mentally destroying herself , she has completly drained me of energy , i try my best , but nothings ever enough , my relationship with my dad has been a bit rocky , because i found it hard to accept that he had a new girlfriend but i love him enough to have come around . But my mum always stops me seeing him and it's so unfair , i can understand that she is hurt , but its hurting mewhen she stops me seeing him . The thing is since my dad left , he pays no maintenance because he gave the house to my mum and pays the mortgage ..and i know that he really doesn't have other money thats why i hate it when she pressures him , he only tries his best , he had his reasons for walking out and i understand them because alot of things hadnt been right for a few years and home was just a warzone . but my grandpa and mum said to me if i carried on seeing him i wasnt welcome home anymore , i refused so they chucked me out , it was realy hard cause it was at night and i live in the country side so i had to phone me dad , and i will never forget or have the same respect for my mum and my grandpa doing that to me , i may forgive them and be back with them , but i went back home only for them to do the same thing , or for me to go to my dads a weekend , and for my mum to txt me to say not to come home , and i never know where i am , i have no stability and i hate it , all i want to do is get away from them both ..
Luucianna 18-21, F 2 Responses 0 Mar 6, 2012