BetrayalWell where to begin..?
My parents got divorced when i was umm i think when i was well before i was born. I really dont know but i was really young. I dont know the full story but i want to find out more because i think kids who have divorced parents have a right to know why and how it happend. I live with my mom, all my life, which is 14 years. For my whole life my moms family told me that he just left me, didnt want to see me, wanted to abort me, and the reason why he wanted to see me was for revenge and because my step mom made him. I was told all of this and around the age of 12 it got to me and i began to cutt myself because of this. Throughout my first 5 years of my life, i guess sometimes i saw him but i do not remember this. The only memory of the first time i saw him was, he came to my mom's house, and took me. The reason why it was so memorable because of how scared i was, i never knew this man. Why was my mom letting him take me. So, after that, he had to see me through this like program were there was a consular watching us in a little room filled with toys. Thats how i began to know my dad. I had a whole new family that i never knew. My dad, step mom, 2 older sisters, my grandmother, great grandmother, and uncle. I love all of them dearly.
Now then, this is my moms story. My dad one time i guess hurt her, my grandmother was evil and wanted my dad back, she calls him a mommas boy, nice ya. So after, ha i dont even know how long they were married, but after whatever he left, me and my mom. Then he dragged her to court, made her spend 20 000 dollars on lawyers and stuff forcing her to let him see me. There is what i have heard.
Now then, this is what my dads mom, my grandmother told me. I didnt want to talk to my dad yet about this. I came up to her and asked her what happend for those 5 years i didnt see him. She told me that, one day my dad came home, the cops were there and told him to take whatever he needed then go. I dont know if i was born at that time, i heard he wasnt at the hospital when i was born so im guessing i wasnt. He left and started to live with my great grandmother. The reason he didnt fight it because my mom put my dad in jail once already. She put a restraining order on him, so he couldnt get near her, and i was with her so he couldnt get near me. For along time, my father fought her in court trying to see me. He spent so much money trying to see me and he had nothing at that time. My grandmother told me he had to leave whenever there was a baby commercial on because he couldnt deal with it. After those 5 years the courts aloud him to start seeing me. I just felt so bad because i had hated him before and felt so depressed. But now i cried and felt his pain.
I just found this out, there are parts of the story i still do not know. I dont even know what is true or not. But its funny because i cant look at my mom the same way. I dont want to live with her anymore and she asks me why im so mad, i have to shove all the anger down and say nothing. She was the cause of me cutting myself. I thought my dad never loved me and he wanted a boy. I felt broken because of her. Currently i want to so desperantly live with my father but i dont know how to do so.
I believe no kid should ever go through with divorced parents. Its not fair because they have to suffer from the fault of their parents. I am determind to get married and stay married.
Thanks for reading and stuff and just remember, you have support and its never was your fault.