I joined this group because, I am constantly worried about my kids and how they do not deserve to have a broken family. I regret all the pain caused by this event. My story is, its not my story!!! I want my kids to know, I am sorry. However, even though they love me and don't blame me they are all different now. I miss the sparkle in their eyes and the laughing the most. I hope someday they all find love and happiness. Maybe when they have children they can find that missing piece again. That is pathetic I know but, that is my wish for them. The sooner the better.