Role Models Of Love
They separated when I was about 6 years old, I'm 20 now. What I remember of their relationship is quite foggy, I don't ever really remember them being affectionate with each other, kissing, cuddling, hugging, You know, the usual lovey dovey stuff. All I remember is that they would fight, a lot. and act more like a nervous, tense couple than a relaxed, loving one. My view of love was non existent. I was really sheltered till I graduated high school so I really did think that was what love is suppose to be like, ( sad I know.) The fact that my parents lived such a loveless marriage did affect me. The majority of my relationships have failed because I have this negative view going into it. I fear rejection and conflict, I don't properly know how to express my feelings either. Or at least I think I don't. I'd hate to put most of the blame on my parents, but I feel as if thats a huge reason to my intimacy issue. I think when you have good role models as parents , you're much more optimistic as far as relationships, you learn how to deal with issues by observing them. I didn't get that as a child so I'm struggling now. Does anyone else have this problem? And any advice would be appreciated.