The Booze

Not sure I'm ready to share all my secrets.  And thank God for now...they seem to guard themselves.  But I will say....Drinking to much is gonna be my demise and downfall.  It seems to be when I get in the most trouble....
ChristineJones ChristineJones
31-35, F
4 Responses Nov 11, 2010

I found a simple solution for my actions while drinking, simple but not easy to recover, but it can be done if you are as sick and tired of myself as i was, im on a path of recovery that works for today

I understand I'm going to ruin my life because of the things ive done while drinking so ashmed

For a very long time the things I did while drunk or just drinking were "FUN" and then somewhere along the line it changed. Waking up not knowing who, why or where. Telling myself I will cut down and I won't drink tonight and not be able to make it thru the afternoon much less getting to the night. I am one of the lucky ones that have found some long term sobriety. I am like Mikmu I hope you can say it could have been.

I seem to have some of my best times while drinking. But maybe its just to fill the empty void that is my life. Or I just like to drink. I dunno.

I could never drink enough to fill the hole inside of me, i got tired of being sick all the time i was either on a hangover or drinking to get drunk it is a viciou cycle, but it can be broken, i had to have help because i couldnt do it on my own