I Have Done Things I Am Not Proud of
"I have spent much of my adult life flinching with pain as I tried to pull out the threads that bound the shadows of my past to me." - Lorna Luft
I've done things I regret. I've done things I'm not proud of. People know some of them - and they're not proud of it either.
I shudder at the thought of my past creeping up behind me. I shudder at the thought of my actions catching up with me. There are things - secrets - I keep to myself. And I plan to keep it that way. I'd never survive if they had to come out. I'm finished and done with much of it. I want nothing to do with it. I wish I could erase it all and pretend it never happened. I wish I could make it a clean slate. No guilt. No filthiness. No pretending. No lying. But it's not so simple.
Time can't erase it. Time can't wash away all I've said and done in a sea of sand and bury everything for good. Everything I've done is logged in a book in a place in my mind and it'll always be a shadow in the dark - haunting me present and future and little by little controlling what I do. There's always be a dark shadow following me and whispering mockery into my ears.
I've done things I regret. I've done things I'm not proud of. People know some of them - and they're not proud of it either.
I shudder at the thought of my past creeping up behind me. I shudder at the thought of my actions catching up with me. There are things - secrets - I keep to myself. And I plan to keep it that way. I'd never survive if they had to come out. I'm finished and done with much of it. I want nothing to do with it. I wish I could erase it all and pretend it never happened. I wish I could make it a clean slate. No guilt. No filthiness. No pretending. No lying. But it's not so simple.
Time can't erase it. Time can't wash away all I've said and done in a sea of sand and bury everything for good. Everything I've done is logged in a book in a place in my mind and it'll always be a shadow in the dark - haunting me present and future and little by little controlling what I do. There's always be a dark shadow following me and whispering mockery into my ears.
By:
Floydess
Age:
16-17
,
Female
