I Confess, Been There And I Don't Ever Want To Go Back!!

Several years ago I went through the darkest time of my life. A parent of mine passed, my mother in law passed who I looked up to as well. Several relatives and friends passed. My wife and I were in a fog. I could not handle this. I started drinking to numb the pain. I wanted intimacy with my wife but it wasn't there and it wasn't her fault. I visited a sex club for an outlet and it was kinky!!. Visited there several times and even experienced some HOT situations. I finally said enough. I could not live with the guilt living with someone who loves me despite what we went through. I eventually confessed to my wife who said it was about time I came clean. Some times I have fleeting thoughts but I would never want to repeat that experience again. Got the drinking under control as well.
I don't ever want to go down that road again!!!!
hhthglvr hhthglvr
56-60, M
May 13, 2012