A Married Woman

This happened about 15 years ago, several years before meeting my wife.  I was single but she was not.  No, we didn't have sex, but we had an online "romance".  She seemed like the perfect woman - we would chat for hours.  She had 3 children, and I knew all about them.  She was married, but not happily.  We chatted just about every day, for hours at a time.  We exchanged photos, normal as well as nude, of each other, and she sent pictures of her kids, their trip to Disney.  We sent things to each other in the mail - she gave me a friends address I could send things to.   She was talking singing lessons, and she taped a song she sang for me - I played that cassette over and over.  She sent a scarf with it, scented with her perfume.   We never met - she lived in Michigan, me in New York.   I can't believe it, but I actually fell in love.  We talked on the phone, talked about living together, talked about the kids - although I didnt have any, I was ready for the responsibility to be with her.

Then finally, we both realized this was crazy, and we stopped.  We exchanged emails once in a while for a bit, and then that was it.   She tracked me down once since then - right after September 11th, to make sure I was ok.

Now that I think back to this, I cannot believe I did this.  I just hope I did not hurt her or her marriage.

That was the one and only time I ever got close to someone on the internet.