Just about every day for the past 5 years I have done things that I am not proud of. I have allowed myself to me sexually mistreated and I have medicated myself to point of near insanity. My efforts are directed now at getting out of this hell-hole.

fullfigureozchick fullfigureozchick
18-21, F
5 Responses Jul 10, 2009

what hell hole are you referring too? We all have done things . But that is why God sent his only son to walk the earth as a man and die for all our sins. God says if the world hates you it hated me first, but behold I have overcome the world. My dear friend Love yourself and forgive yourself ask God to come into your heart right away and change your path ask for wisdom, stregnth and guidance. But you must believe that he will save you or your prayer wont be answered. Just believe and you will see! Gods greatest commandment is love. So love yourself and ask God to step in and help you. I love you!

I understand why you would feel that way. I struggle with the same feelings every day. And then I struggle with the feeling that I am ungratedful because others have it worse than I do. It is a vicious cycle! But I truly believe that there is a light at the end of the tunnel! I just have to find it!!

I know a woman in her 40's she is very dedicated and smart and at times very stuborn! She is so stuborn that somehow she has come to the conclusion that she is worthless.. the sad part is its up to her to find a way to be happy, she doesnt trust herself enough to change anything. She doesnt trust others to help her with change.... she hates herself for things that were not her fault.. the death of a close person... letting go is always hard, but making it a life long obsession... that would suck.. she is misserable in everything she does.. she says things constantly down on herself.she thinks she is reacting to the things that happen but it is now clear in science that it is the opposite.. The reality is reacting to her thoughts.... go to youtube.com watch this movie called "what the bleep do we know" it will help you see. Then watch on youtube "you can heal your body" the 1/10 series. If you get in a car and are too depressed to grab the controls do you really think you will get where your going? Your mind is the bridge between this reality and the next...

I am sorry for what you have gone through. If you need someone to talk to I would be glad to talk to you.

Regretting past mistakes is natural, but unproductive. Is it possible to draw a line under your past and call it an education? You can then move on with a whole heap of experience in what not to do. Thats like having a map to the minefield. Not a bad start.