I Beat Myself Up Over Them. All the Time.

I have

- smoked
- been drunk
- had sex before my 18th birthday
- stolen another girl's boyfriend(that one bothers me the most. At least I didn't know her.)
- been heartbroken
- considered suicide
- been rude to someone who was trying to help me(my doctor)

I wonder how long it will take for me to do the things I can not imagine ever doing at this moment(smoking pot, using drugs, have a one night stand, etc). I can not seem to really trust myself anymore.
 

JojaRodenaLente JojaRodenaLente
18-21, F
8 Responses Mar 11, 2009

I think everyone is right. It's just part of life. I've done many things I'm not proud of and I've done things that I'm very proud of. Don't dwell on the past, you can't change it. Think of what you can do today to make you or someone else feel good. One, compliments to a person goes a long way. "nice shirt" etc.

I think the big mistake there was saying I WILL NEVER never say never

I think the big mistake there was saying I WILL NEVER never say never

I think the big mistake there was saying I WILL NEVER never say never

I think the big mistake there was saying I WILL NEVER never say never

I think the big mistake there was saying I WILL NEVER never say never

its all about growing up girl. <br />
Are you searching for a future? a hope? a reason for living?<br />
Try God. I know it might sound corny, but He does provide the answers to those ?s and definitely gives hope for the future.<br />
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U might also try setting goals and dreams for urself. Short term long term... give urself something to look forward to, and most importantly <br />
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WRITE THEM DOWN and put them where u can see them and be reminded of them.<br />
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Life is what u make it and U r the creator of your destiny.

That's what life's all about. Setting boudaries and then getting drunk and breaking them.