Dont Know What to Do
I am now a sophomore in college, but the summer of my senior year in high school and after my carcrash they began.
I had this dream about one of my school mates funerals and what the church would look like and all the details, but I blew it off as just a dream because he had been a jerk to me the previous week, but then it happened and it scared me so I just figured it was "deja-vu" and I let it go.
But then I lost my best friend a few months after this first dream and I had a similar dream to the one previously described before her carcrash, I remember in the dream reading her obituary on the internet based kind and I just let it go b/c we had a little argument during school, i can remember exactly every little detail about the funeral where everyone was sitting what this church looked like and what it was called and i had never been to it, what she was wearing her in casket, what I was wearing there, and what the front of the church looked like, but for some reason I blew it off as just a dream, but I shouldn't have because it came true. It ate at me and ate at me, until I talked to my pastor, I thought it was my fault that it had happened, but I learned it couldn't be helped. I told my parents and my pastor and eventually my other close friends. To me it's like a daily thing like most days are so familiar. Softball games are another I would have dreams about my games how they would go who would hit it where and who would win etc, etc. But i just felt so outcast and still kind of do b/c i dont know anyone else who has had these. I am getting used to it but it still kind of freaks me out.
Not too long ago I had one of my mother I woke up crying and coincidently it involved a carcrash. I haven't told het the details I have just told her to be careful, it's all i can do b/c God's will, will be done. I have been writing them down. My pastor also suggests to see a psychologist, b/c he thinks I might not be getting oxygen into my brain when i sleep or that i still might be depressed from my friends death. i just have that gut feeling all the time too, i dont know if you guys believe in spirits or ghosts, but I always get feelings that i am being watched when I enter a certain room or in other places i get this sense that something is there but i dont know what it is. if you guys have done anything that has helped let me know please.