Before They Can Push Me Away...

It's always been the same. I trust people and they end up betraying me. I open up to people and they end up pushing me away. I comfort people and they back stab me. What's the point? What's the point of giving yourself to others only to get paid back in disappointment? So I decided to push people away before they could push me away first. I hardly let anyone get too close to me anymore...heck I don't let anyone get too close to me anymore. If they got too close, I would start pushing them away. It's become a sort of instinct now. If anyone got too close to me then I would just push them away and keep them at a distance. I couldn't help it. It was better for us both. I hated being hurt and I hate living in this paranoia.
shootingstarsxlove shootingstarsxlove
18-21, F
1 Response May 18, 2012

*hugs tightly* I'm sorry to hear dat. I kno how u feel, but I don't giv up & continue to let ppl in so I can figure out who r my real friends r. I do feel pain, which explains my depression, but I hav my true friends to comfort me. Hopefully u find sum1 who can b a real friend to u