For years I have struggled with painful spasms from my neck to my hips, with unexplained pains in my legs. My orthopedists insisted that I just had scoliosis, and sent me to PT and put me in useless back braces. It wasn't until I sought out a neurologist in May out of sheer desperation to get a explanation for my pain (and maybe a little help) that I was diagnosed with dystonia. Ever since, it has been a struggle to balance meds, health insurance problems, working and being a full time student. Sometimes I just feel hopeless, like I'm stuck in a rut with an incurable disorder that isn't me. Sometimes I just want to pull the covers up and stop getting out of bed. I have the greatest guy ever to support me and my parents who do what they can to help, but there are days, like today, when I just want to give up fighting, but I don't know how. Fighting through each day and clinging to the hope that things will one day look up.
Medi2017 Medi2017
22-25, F
Aug 17, 2014