I "belong" to the "general" eating disorder group..but felt compelled to join this one, too.

(TRIGGER WARNING)

I've struggled with bulimia for 32 years..but in that time, I've also experienced different aspects of an ED at once..sometimes I'd starve for days on end..sometimes binge and purge..sometimes just binge...sometimes no binging, only purging..lax and diuretic abuse..etc., etc. It was only fairly recently..maybe within the past couple of years, that I learned that my behaviors are so "muddy" to the point of possibly falling under this term of EDNOS. I used to think I was bulimic with anorexic tendencies..but I think it's fairer to say that I am bulimic with EDNOS tendencies...meaning that b/p seems to be the predominant behavior, but I also have "shades" of every other ED, as well.

I don't engage in the pill abuse, anymore..or fast for 10 days..but I do "skate" back and forth between binging, b/p and restriction...and intermittent fast twice a week for 24 hours...and I hate how my eating behaviors can change on a dime. Just yesterday I had a b/p "episode"...then read something and was suddenly influenced to watch my fat and sugar intake (which I'm presently doing). I had a good day today. I ate under 600 cals and exercised for 45 minutes. But who knows what tomorrow will bring?

Such is the unpredictable Hell of having EDNOS. :(
Misfitbrokentoy Misfitbrokentoy
51-55, F
Aug 22, 2014