Emetophilia (vomit Fetish)Well for as long as I can remember Ive been into throwing up, particularly girls throwing up. When I was five or six I dared my friend to stick her fingers down her throat and throw up and she did. I can remember getting a certain kind of feeling from that and it felt good. I dont know why and since then Ive been into it. If I even thought a girl might throw up my heart would start beating fast in anticipation. I would keep looking at her waiting for her to puke. Now that Im older I find myself watching videos of girls puking. Its sick (no pun intended) I know. I just being honest here. The other day some kind started puking in the garbage and I wanted to stay and watch for some reason. I prefer girls throwing up but I think Im just fascinated with puke period. However, I dont like throwing up myself. Actually it quite worries me that I might, thats why I dont like trying new foods and if I know Im going to a theme park with roller coasters I wont even eat breakfast just to make sure I dont throw up on the rides.
I once threw up before school in fourth grade. My mom would make this soupy oatmeal and the texture was disgusting. It was like eating vomit. I guess on this particular morning my stomach wasnt having it and rejected it. I quitely excused myself and threw up in the bathroom. I was so embarrassed that I did that I didnt tell anyone. I think maybe there was more going on with my stomach than the oatmeal because my stomach was hurting all day after that.
I havent thrown up since fourth grade and Im trying to keep it that way. Ive had some close calls but no puke. The last time I almost vomitted was on the train a few weeks ago when I got naseaous all of a sudden for no reason. Its funny how when you think your gonna throw up you get hot for some reason. I was just hoping I wouldnt throw up in front of all those people. I was gonna get off the trian if I felt like it was really gonna happen just to avoid the humiliation.
I understand that wanting girls to vomit is not a normal attraction and that theres different levels of emetophilia. Just for the record I just like to watch nothing else. I dont want to smell it, taste it, or be vomitted on. Im glad theres a place where I can say these things and not be looked at like Im insane. Thanks for reading :-)