I Have Emetophobia
When I was in 3rd grade, this one boy in my class threw up all the time! He always sat next to me and he was always getting sick. In third grade, I began to have dreams about throw up. They would literally be nightmares. I slept with my mother until I was about 15 because I was so scared to have dreams about it. I literally think about throw up every 2 minutes of every single day. I always feel like I am going to throw up. I always feel like someone around me is going to throw up. I know that many people say that it's all in my head, and it probably is, but that doesn't help the situation. Also, many people find throw up to be gross or disgusting. To me, it is nerve wrecking. I have panic attacks. When I was 16, my boyfriend was drunk and he threw up all over my basement and I got rushed to the hospital because I had such a bad panic attack that I couldn't breath. It's been such an issue for me. Every day, I wonder when the next time I am going to be around throw up. If I get cancer, I will NOT go on chemo. I would rather die than have to be sick all the time. I am in college and I do not party because I am scared of throw up. It is literally taking over my life. This summer, my parents wanted to plan a trip to Mexico or Dominican Republic instead of the Jersey shore but I said that I could not go because I am too scared of getting sick from the food or water over there. Does anyone have the same thoughts/feelings? Please tell me I am not alone.
By:
jennagorman
Age:
18-21
,
Female
