I Have Emetophobia
I'm eighteen and i have had Emetophobia my entire life. As long as i can remember. I cant recall when i actually got it but the fact that my older sister had it, makes sense. She didn't have it nearly as bad as me and she had it at a much younger age. I cannot eat for fear of throwing up, i disappoint my loving boyfriend every time i try to push myself to go out or make plans and i either bail out at the last second or just have to leave. i keep my parents up at night with worry, and my little sister sees me cry myself to sleep. I have fallen into a great depression. I am 18 i should be able to go away to college and do normal teenage things but i stayed home for school, not even liking the half hour drive i have in fear of being away from home in case i got sick. It has taken over my life and i cannot deal with this anymore. Everyone close to me tells me that it will get better, but when? When will i be normal? Ever? I have a lot of doubts. I'm medication that's not working, therapy isn't working nor yoga/meditation. What do i do. I'm becoming extremely suicidal and my parents and doctors don't know how to help anymore...