I Have Trouble Interacting With People.
Especially strangers. I have vast trust issues. My mind is suspicious in nature. Right when I meet someone I try to look through them. Luckily people are usually pretty oblivious. I listen well, cross check any vague little vibe. arrogance. or "shadiness". Always measuring up whether or not I can turn my back on them. I have post traumatic stress disorder. Like an intense distrust and paranoia, that belongs there. A deep rooted survivalist intensity. Any slight bit of adrenaline, and I am on guard. Its like always looking over your shoulder. I guess that is the most severe of my emotional problems.. It effects my ability to just talk to people. Tell them what I think of feel. In day to day life, at work or the like. I do not talk very much. But when I am rarely able to relax, I am able to have great conversations with people. I know that my past is still holding me back, delaying any real future. I am getting better. But still it is difficult. That is one of the reason I am here on EP. To learn how other people are and are not able to handle life. To gain some perspective. There are many people damaged in some way. Why some thrive despite adversity. Why some are able to function despite what they have seen.