I Have Emetophobia

Im seventeen years old and have had emet for around 10 years, since around the age of 7. Iv already got a story about this on here but  thought that it would be better if i gave a more detailed experience and if you could please comment after reading this, I would appreciate it.

I have the kind were I fear others being s*ck, I have a little fear of me becoming ill but it isn't as bad. I'm still like other emetophobics who have to be clean or you think you will get ill, i wash my hands a lot. And when i start to feel sick at night, i try to close my eyes to make it go away. The times when i do throw up, my reaction to it is just normal, i wouldn't freak out. It's just when others are being s*ck, I can't be in the same room, I just want to be as far away from that person as possible, even though it kills me that i cant help them. Which is what i fear in the future when i have children of my own and i cant look after them.

I think it all first started when I were in my 4th year of primary school (infant school), when we often had this time were we would arrange all of our chairs in a circle and talk about stuff. This one particular time, I remember just being sat there and a boy sudeenly v*mits all over the floor, I went into panic mode. I dont know what came over me because I did have times before were someone would v*mit and it wouldnt bother me, i didnt like it, no one does but this time it did. I closed my eyes as tightly as I could, put my fingers in my ears, started to cry and ran out of the room. Thinking back, I bet the other kids thought I were really wierd. Ever since then I'v had similar experiences, once when my sister was s*ck in our car with a stomach bug on our way to some place we had to go to, it was absolute hell.

If there is anyone on here who has been cured from this, could you please comment. I believe that something can be done to stop this. Its taking over my life and I hate it.

Melissa93 Melissa93
18-21, F
4 Responses Mar 9, 2010

Melissa ,this story is for you.

My son was a stellar hockey player when he was 10 years old and then he became Emetophobic,he was a traveling hockey player and played everywhere( including Europe ) ,at the age of 13 he had to stop because he could not stand the other players vomiting during practices.Hockey is a very hard sport and you work your rear end off and this type of stuff happens.
He stopped eating a whole lot of foods that he figured would make him sick,he lost 30 lbs in 2 months.We went to see psychiatrist and she was really good with him.It took him 4 years of fighting thru this and we just supported him every day.
You know the story ,from the time you wake up until you go to sleep,that's all you can think of.
OK here is the good part,not only did it stopped,he regained his weight , his strength and trained really hard,others would get sick around him and he now laughs about it.
Last week my son played in the state championship for hockey,he won state,scored 4 ridiculous goals out of the 5 and is regarded as an incredible hockey player once again.

So the answer yes it can go away,you can do it but you know you are the only one that can really help yourself,you probably never have gotten sick and you know this.

You will not pass this on to your kids,it's in your head like a dream,dreams can not pass from person to person.

Wish you the best,believe in yourself and get help if you need it,it's not the end of the world ,it's just a bump in the road. If my son did, it so can you.

I have had a very non normal fear of vomiting since I was 6. I never knew there was an actual phobia for it or that so many others experience it as well. I remember vomitting as a child, and being ok with it. I dont remember why I suddenly feared vomit- it just happened. Im 23, and have not thrown up since I was 6 years old.<br />
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Growing up, every single night for years before I fell asleep, I would pray to God and ask him to let me get through the next day without vomitting.<br />
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I can recall waking up in the middle of the night when I was 19 at my parents house and had to throw up. I of course of many years of practice, had learned how to avoid it. But in fear that I might fail, I woke up both of my parents and made them sit with me the rest of the night. Because they raised me and understand my fear of this, they of course were fine with it.<br />
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I absolutely will not sleep without a nightlight (just in case I need to throw up in the middle of the night)<br />
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The same reason, I REFUSE to sleep anywhere with the door closed.<br />
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No matter the temperature in the room, I need a fan blowing on me at all times and when I sleep, I need to use 3 elevated pillows. (in my mind, these two things will allow me to not throw up)<br />
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When I found out I was pregnant, I cried for days in fear of morning sickness starting. So I lied to my doctor and told him I was throwing up prefusely so that he would prescribe me bottles of zofran (anti nausea pill) just in case I would have to throw up.<br />
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When I do have the feeling to throw up, I get extreme panic attacks and freak out. I do this cough and swallow thing....that seems to suppress the vomit.<br />
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I always have gum on me. And if I dont feel well at night time, I must have the television on the whole night while I sleep.<br />
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When others are sick, I quarantine myself from them. Those who live with me who have the flu, must constantly have a washcloth to breath in to at all times. When they are done with the flu, I disinfect the house, change the linens on beds, and buy us all toothbrushes.<br />
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I dont ride rollercoasters or drink until fully intoxicated in fear of a hangover.<br />
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I came across Emetophobia today for the first time, because I recently found out that people throw up during labor. So I was googling if I was able to take Zofran during labor, and if not I have already made my fiance' agree to sneak the bottle of pills in with him when I do go into labor.<br />
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The disease is overpowering. It controls every aspect of my life and I hate it.

this is exactly how i am! i am okay with myself being sick, although it hasn't always been that way. it wasn't until i went to college and moved out and was on my own and i was MADE TO BE okay with being sick, that i was fine with it. Before, i was 16 and crying for my mom yelling that i hoped i wouldn't throw up. <br />
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people don't understand that it's not that it grosses me out, it actually SCARES me. i work at a preschool (great place to work, right?) and i work every day not to think about it. i have to tell myself not to think about it. i will sit at circle with the children and look at every one of them and see how they look and if they look like they are going to be sick. often, i pinpoint a child who is tired, but i think looks like they could be feeling ill, and i will spend all day avoiding that child.<br />
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we had a kid throw up at school about a year ago, and the other teachers ran to him and i just ran to the other room. once i saw another teacher, i asked if i could leave the school (i was just pacing back and forth and back and forth and back and forth) and as soon as they said it was okay, i was out the door and then i continued to pace out there. the other teachers were so shocked. they said to me "it's just throw up" and i could not explain to them that it's just JUST throw up. it's panic for me. and they saw me have a panic attack and freak out and were just so amazed that someone could have that reaction to vomiting.<br />
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i do not watch it on tv or movies, i love jackass, but i know when those scenes are coming up and i close my eyes and put my fingers in my ears and move them around to block out the sounds and the scene of the whole thing. <br />
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i know mine came from my biological father. he claimed to have a disorder that caused him to get sick, but he would get sick EVERYWHERE. i remember being 2 and him getting sick all over the car, all over our house, after we ate. i know that's where my fear comes from.<br />
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i am okay with adults feeling ill if there is a bathroom nearby, because i feel like most adults can make it to a bathroom, but i cannot imagine being stuck in a car with someone! i get scared of people getting car sick, and my boyfriends family gets car sick. we had to drive to chicago together and they took motion sickness pills, but the whole time i was in the front passenger seat with curled up in the fetal position with a blanket over my head and my headphones turned up all the way, for FIVE hours.

This sounds so similiar to my experiences, i've even had the whole 'stuck in the car' thing. I especially close my eyes and put my hands over my ears in bad times. How have you coped at schoool so far? <br />
:)