I Have Experienced Psychosis
Visiting from the BPD forum. I have almost all of my history over there.
The type of psychosis I have endured is called brief reactive psychosis. This is psychosis that shows its ugly face during extreme times of stress. Things like this happened to me as far back as I can remember. I was a loner as a child and I had a ton of "Friends" that I talked to and believed where real. I would retreat and do that when my father was being abusive or if I thought he was going to be.
Then as a teen, if I ever got majorly stressed, I would do a lot of the same things I did as a child. When my grandfather died, I did the "word-salad" thing a lot around my mom and then, I was finally taken to a doctor at this time. I have experienced much delirium (the docs said probably due to the bipolar and BPD, PTSD, major depressive disorder and psychosis).
I have also had the drug withdrawal psychosis. I was withdrawing from Effexor and it threw me for a loop. I broke everything in the house and used broken glass to slice up my leg (says my roommate at the time). Then I was kept in a rubber-like room being observed all night long with the light on.
I also was withdrawing from pain medication and had psychosis. I was feeding my daughter and took the tray off because she was finished. I saw her HIT the floor, face first!! I start screaming and crying and looked up at the highchair where she was still sitting, strapped in. That was one of the scariest episodes I have ever had.
I really don't "hear" things but I do "see" a lot of random things here and there, but only under extreme stress. That is why my docs didn't diagnose me with schizophrenia. They said it was a schizotpy (spell?) type thing going on.
Anyways, I'll take up no more time in this post with this because it can go on and on.
