It's A Day To Day Struggle

I have had anxiety for a few years now, it started in school with tests, and progressed to so much more. I use to take medication for it, but i felt that all it did was numb me it was for depression as well, and i don't want to be one of those people who relys on their drugs to help them get through life. I miss being able to go grocery shopping without having a panic attack, or going on the bus and being able to breathe and feel relaxed, but you know what i'm working on it, in the moment i'm freaking out but i'm trying to face my battles one by one and to me that's a big accomplishment, and i hope some day soon i will no longer fight my anxiety battle.

BrieXO BrieXO
18-21, F
2 Responses Feb 10, 2010

You can't just put on a brave face. Like me, you have a chemical imbalance which prevents you from feeling normal. I hate my anxiety, because it makes me feel so helpless and scared. I also suffer from depression. Medication is the most logical answer, even though it makes you feel "weighed down". For me, it's better than the panic and restlessness anxiety causes. Depression/Anxiety has literally ruined my life: marriage, work, personal relationships and daily functioning. I understand what you are going through.

Most people are anxious inside - put on a brave front and you will learn to feel brave inside your head.<br />
You are probably very brave anyway if you are fighting this and you should be more confident. I was so anxious for years I could not work but I overcame it and learned to be in control of it. It is just a thought you can change. No one knows you are panicking they are too busy with their own feelings<br />
usually. Keep growing and things will get much better.