For The First Time EverI never imagined I would ever fail a class. I have always had above average intelligence. I made all A's and B's in elementary, middle, and high school until my senior year, when I made one C my last semester. College has been much harder, partially because of the difficulty of the classes, but a lot of it is also because of my lack of drive and self-discipline.
But speaking of drive and self-discipline, I think those things plummeted this semester. I can't even put a finger on why. I haven't gotten my final grades officially posted yet (I think they come out Friday), but a couple of my professors have let me know my final grades. I made a D in my first aid class due solely to absences, and I failed my graphic design class due mostly to absences also.
While my graphic design class was hard, I think I would have at least made a C if I hadn't had all those absences. What I wish I knew is why I missed class so much. I know part of it, but not all of it. I have gone through a crisis over the past few weeks. My girlfriend's mother died, and that stress has really dragged me down and exhausted me. As a result, I have been oversleeping for the past few weeks. So I get that. But I was already missing classes a lot before this happened. It wasn't happening as often, but it was still happening.
I'm really starting to think that I'm just burnt out on school. I started college as soon as I graduated from high school, and this is my eighth semester here. I'm supposed to graduate next semester, but I'm starting to wonder if I really will. I'll definitely have to take that class I failed next semester over again. Even worse, I've been planning on going to graduate school after I graduate because a B.S. in psychology is...as it appears...B.S. Pretty much useless. But seeing how I've been doing in college makes me doubt my success in graduate school. Maybe I should just focus on graduating and let that be it. But then that useless B.S. degree will go to waste.
I just can't believe I failed a class. My parents are going to kill me.