Thoughts Of A Typical Girl Like Me

My name is Tiffany. I am 21 years old. I feel lonely. I constantly have my family reminding me that I have no job and am not attending school. My sister told me recently that its embarrassing and that i am too it hurts. I cant do any thing but cry i am trying the best that i can. My family treats me like a chewed up piece of gum of the bottom of there shoe. I can't have a talk with none of them because they don't understand. I stay locked up in my room (unless I have to use the restroom or make my self eat I can't eat when I am depressed) So I won't be a burden on any one. I also try not to ask for money or anything while in the store so my sister or mother or grandmother don't get upset with me. The feeling that I have no one deserves these feelings NO ONE. I put on a smile while among others as well as my family. I wanna go somewhere where I can be me and not have to worry about competition because when it comes down to it that's all it is competition. Who has the first child, who gets there first car or home. A family shouldn't be based on that. What ever happen to people that supported one another through tough and trailing times. I am just to the point of my life where I wanna end it all to not even be here. I don't know how to handle this situation any more So i just do what I can and pray to god in between to help me during this downfall in my life. I would appropriate some advice on this situation. I would also like to discuss this Situation with some one to make me feel better. I look forward to all the responses and thank you for having time to read this.
shygirl2013 shygirl2013
18-21, F
Jan 9, 2013