Constant Pain


I would like to share my fibromyalgia story. I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia in 1999. At that time I thought the pain was horrible. Little did I know that it would get worse during the years. The pain now is like having flu symptoms. The aches and pains are sometimes so bad I end up crying. I also get twitches and have constant muscle spasams in my upper thighs. They mostly occur when I am sitting. The good days are great, and the bad days are the worse ever. I walk every morning through pain. Being on disability for DJD, osteoporis, and the list goes on. Often I feel like I am alone because I have no one to talk to about this except my spouse but they really don't understand, now do they. I get severe pain, in my back, arms legs and have impact pain in my ankles, fingers, knees. Impact  pain I call it because it's like someone putting a knife in you. It comes out of no where. It's almost like playing Russian Roulete with pain. And I am constnatly tired. I fall asleep having my coffee in the morning. It is a horrible thing to live with. Four years ago I had a spinal fusion. My disc are detereating and I am allergic to callcium and I am  lactose intollerant.  I had four screws insterted between my disc.  On both sides. As with all spine operations I'm lucky to be walking. In watching my self very carefully, I have to be careful walking moving the right way, bending the right way, excersising the right way. I feel my age has to do with a lot of it. I will be 57 years young this year. And I just lost 33 lbs, just cutting down on my servings of food. That hasn't been easy either. I guess if some one asked me  what was the worse of having fibromyalga I would have to say the severe pain, and also being always exhausted. I just take it one day at a time and hope for the best.

selky56 selky56
56-60, F
1 Response Jul 24, 2007

You have the right idea,live for the day and tomorrow will take care of itself.You are a VERY brave person whom I admire,I wish I could ease your pain,I really do.