No Need To Search Further . . .

 I know who it is : 100%

This is sooooooo good, but at the same time it has a bad tone. I feel life has placed a cruel trick in my life. He is everything I would ever want in a man, in a boyfriend, in a husband! .. but I just, cant be with him. Our circumstances don't allow us. I know we can pay yearly visits throughout our lives to each other. Be together...... Spend time together..... bask in our love, and have our hearts grow fonder and fonder each time! But that is the furthest ( I believe ) we can go. I can't be with him 24/7. I cant share a home with him, I cant start a family with him, and I can grow old with him. Perhaps this can be possible, but I would have to leave behind SO much..... I'd have to sacrifice what I have. My family, My friends, and even my country. (in an extreme case).

I am 21, and he is 44. The love of my life, he is. My soulmate, my missing piece in my heart. We spend great time together, wonderful talks, we share with each other about anything, we don't keep secrets from another, and we are always there for each other. I have grown to look past his age, and see him as the man I want to be with. 

We have made great memories so far. and I would love for more to come, for many years yet. even though I can't be with him, I want him to be in my life forever. I want him to be a part of everything. I want him to be there for me. (as I too will be for him). I want to share my future experiences with him as well. In other words:: I want him IN MY LIFE!!

I feel that there will many obstacles yet to come. but I am prepared to work through them together.


~ I'm so happy you came into my life. You are exactly what I needed. You are just SO perfect for me. 

i'm soooo very grateful for your love. There will be no one like you EVER in my life..........





My heart is eternally yours 

MizShagtastic MizShagtastic
22-25, F
4 Responses Dec 5, 2009

snookybear awe......!<br />
um...if you've never met this guy face to face, I would seriously get on some meds.

My soulmate is my wife. She is on EP. My wife is Lululee.

Ah - sweet EP LOVE. It's a beautiful thing, but the circumstances so impossible and bittersweet.<br />
<br />
I too found my 'soul mate' on EP.. the image of him so perfect in my mind. but I know we really don't know eachother at all. <br />
<br />
It's been two years; we still keep in touch via yahoo.. my bestest friend forever.. I doubt we'll ever meet unless the stars somehow align...<br />
<br />
My advice to you is: Love eachother in an Agape Way, but don't disengage or shut yourselves off from having Real People in your life to touch and hold and taste and smell.. you both are missing so much, loving exclusively in this virtual world.<br />
<br />
So much neither of you will ever know without meeting and sharing your real essences... so much left to interpretation... Too many blanks to fill in... <br />
<br />
I still wonder about my Aussie Man.. I love and miss him.. <br />
<br />
It's more than a passing infatuation, though I now have a better Real Love in Real Life... <br />
<br />
I sometimes cry those very real tears thinking about my 'What If Man' from the distant land down under.<br />
<br />
Love you Sab. Miss you. <br />
<br />
Good luck Shag & 'David'

awee, i have also found my soulmate.