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 I know who it is : 100%

This is sooooooo good, but at the same time it has a bad tone. I feel life has placed a cruel trick in my life. He is everything I would ever want in a man, in a boyfriend, in a husband! .. but I just, cant be with him. Our circumstances don't allow us. I know we can pay yearly visits throughout our lives to each other. Be together...... Spend time together..... bask in our love, and have our hearts grow fonder and fonder each time! But that is the furthest ( I believe ) we can go. I can't be with him 24/7. I cant share a home with him, I cant start a family with him, and I can grow old with him. Perhaps this can be possible, but I would have to leave behind SO much..... I'd have to sacrifice what I have. My family, My friends, and even my country. (in an extreme case).

I am 21, and he is 44. The love of my life, he is. My soulmate, my missing piece in my heart. We spend great time together, wonderful talks, we share with each other about anything, we don't keep secrets from another, and we are always there for each other. I have grown to look past his age, and see him as the man I want to be with. 

We have made great memories so far. and I would love for more to come, for many years yet. even though I can't be with him, I want him to be in my life forever. I want him to be a part of everything. I want him to be there for me. (as I too will be for him). I want to share my future experiences with him as well. In other words:: I want him IN MY LIFE!!

I feel that there will many obstacles yet to come. but I am prepared to work through them together.

~ I'm so happy you came into my life. You are exactly what I needed. You are just SO perfect for me. 

i'm soooo very grateful for your love. There will be no one like you EVER in my life..........

I LOVE YOU, DAVID. I LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH. ALWAYS AND FOREVER

AND I WANT THE ENTIRE WORLD TO KNOW!

My heart is eternally yours