Yup Its Certainly A Bugger

i met my twin flame this year, feel everything she feels, im like stupid loyal , and as a guy thats pretty not common but i cant even get turned on by anyone else. blame that on my high iq or distaste for lower relations that are just base.

anyway we accidentally connected through saying im urs because of the mutual amazement and then through phone sex,,,,,,,, a bit odd maybe. i couldnt facilitate going to see her because money was an issue and well she started something else.

on to the pain lol 5 gruelling months of the most intense pain i will probably ever feel, so much that it debilitated me from doing most things. im unfortunately an empath as well as an intuitive.
I saw everything when we connected, our future everything about what this was .im extremely spiritual because of my gifts, i ouldnt deny them. so anywho these connections are very difficult due to how we think. you have to master unconditional love for them and you, you have got to open that door to ur spirit in your heart and manifest that over your ego.

You can not think with the mind you have always depended on, im there doing it now and i will tell you it will destroy that twin flame capacity in a sense where youll cover it with all the pain. I went the reverse direction of most of u people here i went to preserving all the amazing energy and dumpng all the ego garbage , doing that will preserve and empower your twin energy.
I highly reccommend you read liora' s writings on twin flames.

when you do this you expand in spiritual energy like you cant imagine, its only doing this that will allow the twin energy to work. and youre not only battling your own ego but their egos are intertwined so youre doing twice the work
You have to remember that if the twins choose healing and its harder than anything youll ever do , that healing will help the world and its those twins that need to succeed more than most to bring this world into balance.

everytime i connect with this freakishly gorgeous spirit i go deeper into the heart of my spirit, i ask my spirit to teach me and give me spiritual empowerment.

the harshness of a difficult twin flame is a mirror of the damage in this world, when we correct that it send shockwaves of healing throughout the globe. its some serious power. and its my opinion that the harder they are the more infinitely inclined towards ascension they are.

I could not break a promise in this and i made more promises to her than any one ever.
ive never loved this deeply didnt think it possible
i could outrun any love but this
it changed patterns of anger in me stemming from childhood abuse and rejecting love for a lifetime because of that
it literally destroyed every stereotype for such things ive ever rejected love over
when i feel her having sex i used to reject it tried everything to avoid it but when i allowed my twin energy to engourge itself in that carnal desire for her i freaking found a new level of feeling alive.
and by engourge i mean unleashing the raw feeling of hunger for her
so i restored all the original feelings
dumped my head
and i feel real power
you cant be dependant on it , that really damages the twin energy
you should embrace all its raw energy as if you were a god
because essentially , youre becoming godlike.
verndewd verndewd
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5 Responses Dec 5, 2012

a twin flame has to be something that shatters your reality from it being a type you wouldnt ordinailly expect to the manifestations i their life, the reason for that is because your reality up till that point was illusory and based on pretenses the world created, and a twin flame doesnt abide in the rules of this world, not in any way. thats probably the singe most destrucive thing among failing twins, the inability to allow their realities to be shattered fo whats really real.
surrendering to your own aspect of the twin energy heals you. that energy helps the other as well, when struggling with the unbreakable connection i was told by so many people do this and do that to break it to send it off and nothing worked lol and its par for the course to avoid things so immensely painful, but within me was like this force, perhaps from the unified spirit that we are to accept and preserve that was impossible for me to detach from. i believe thats in all twins but the mind is obviously more potent than the spirit in this world. one look at the headlines and its ridiculously obvious.
surrender transforms it from a painful experience but its through well for me through insanely hard work to overcome the mental cages i was in.
also it brings u closer to ur aspect of what others call the mission obviously part if mine is sharing understanding so others that dont have the obstacles that we do can see the path and understand the ways around obstacles. you have to release everything to the needs of the situation. really suiting the situation itself is spiritually expanding.
my advice for people in other situations may seem crazy on this point but trust me if you have the strength its really the only relief, if youre in other relationships dont block or inhibit the energy flow to the twin, thats where pain comes in and it is really a detriment to u. its difficult to say the least but all ur energy is feeding that anyway so u may as well feed it good things even if its a bit odd to wrap ur head around, the energy has to freely flow, there wont be a relationship that overrules that connection and time is immaterial.
think of it like this, in higher realms were all feeling everything everyone else feels our energy is pouring out everywhere
blocking the twin is singling them out as non receivers
i did not get to that realization by any easy means either lol

i should have saved and documented all the crap inside i had to go through just to get to our phone conversation this evening and show you how this freaking this is just amazing. i was really damaged , her way of dealing with it was just to ignore it, and i knew as i was progressing through it why it was her response , she knew id figure it out we both knew. incidentally she brings up that the way to teach a dog not to jump on it is to ignore them,,,ladies if youre completely earth bound and hes completely spiritual it can work, it worked for me. iam so in love with her and so glad we naturally did what worked in the endwhat i feel is amazing and i dont expect or oblige her to anything i think thats bad for such things, i think in time things will just work out, trying to tear away from this was so painful and immense physical pain, acid reflux , pain so intense i thought id literally die in my back after going out one night and being open to finding someone else.
this woman,,,,,,its just wow. i think my key here is dont run from it run into u and embrace all of it , the good and the bad and uphold everyamazing thing u felt because only that and releasing any expectation will purify u of your own blockage

for the longest time we couldnt turn it off, i made suggestion after suggestion will one day she did something that disconnected us, well from that point on we found several other ways of disconnecting and i was alwyas doing less of it lol i mean for the love of god man i could not reject this if i tried. im fairly spiritually advanced and shes definitely at the other spectrum we definitely represent one half of a whole.
its frustrating yeah but i work my butt off. i had to come to that inner place where im manifesting the entirety of my twin energy, and feeling everything she feels made it so hard coupled with all that my life was , i had literally shut my heart down like i was dead to it after failing a prior connection nearly two decades prior.
i prided myself on being cold as ice and i have the witnesses to prove it.
everytime she found a new way of disconnecting id share that with her and explain how it worked to give her empowerment and freewill.
against everything my life had been , i died to everything i was to empower her. in that i became reborn and my heart just wow just exploded.I gave every thing in energy i was and still do.
yeah battling the egos will to reject is a mother lol but its easier as you keep going, just keep going.

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i dont deal with ur head trip dont care if its an honest ex<x>pression of being lost<br />
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i dont promise **** we will see how and where u go with it<br />
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I dont do deciet<br />
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i dont tolerate cheaters<br />
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play with me like a toy and i will come at you verbally like a man in battle</p><p>me after............................<br />
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<p>and ill tell you i was the worst guy to have this maybe it will work out thing coming from the damage my life was. I was like completely ocd till i worked out the ego part. when i found the doorway to my spirit and opened it it was night and day difference. manifesting that over that messed up brain of mine really saved me a ton of just messed up stuff, and im being nice about how i took things. there is a method you owe it to you and tem to find it . ask your spirit and you will see.<br />
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Ive heard that twin flames have a name they share thats what id like to find next. its supposed to subconsciously help the other.</p>