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Twin Flames And The Hell That Comes Before

Hi I'm laura and reacently was able to realize that my twin flame had been right infont of me most of my life. After getting a bit of intuition that our relationship was diffrent then any others i had made i looked for what might be the cause. I found a site on twin flames we did some of the tests like the lines on our hands are the same and we even have the same freckle on our left hands. We have always been very intouch with each other he was always there when I needed him when no one else could console me when my father died he was the only one to tell me everyones parents die you need to stop the pitty party and start healing yourself and yes it was that blunt but i needed it. He has always known how to pull me out of my hole of depression when things got bad. I also do the same for him I always know when something is wrong though he tries so hard not to show it I can always feel his heart. It took alot of spiritual growth and soul searching to humble myself enough to realize that this man who had been my friend for a decade was the one I had been searching for all my life.

But all is not joy and love there is alot I have gone through in this life more pain then I have seen anyone endure that is 22 and more pain then I would wish on the most corrupt of humans. When I was young my father who was my best friend and only friend at times was diagnosed with hepititus c. I lived with the knowlage that my father who I loved so much who seemed industructable my hero would die and could die at any minute any time in a blink of an eye and there was nothing I could do. It caused me alot of depression and lead to some seriouse anxiety issues that i still have not and may never fully put to rest. I had a big brother who I idolized die when i was young as well. Being empythetic in a house full of grieving and truely wounded people isnt an easy thing to deal with but I grew from it and loved all the people I had in my life even more because of it. Life is fickle and does not always last long is a lesson that has been engraved in my very bones all through my life starting from a very early age all my life I have seen death take those I love to soon.
I've struggled with depression and thoughts of suicide since as far back as I can remember but I always knew I was not given this life to throw it away with my own hands. I've seen people come and go had my heart ripped apart many times seen friends lost to drugs and watched loved ones wither away from cancer. Even now I struggle my twin and I are in diffrent countrys I'm in a realtionship that is most likely coming to an end with a man I deeply care about but can no longer sit back and watch destroy himself.

My point is not for you to feel sorry for me please dont I have worked hard to over come all of this alive and better for it. My favorite saying is that the reason I can love so much so unconditionaly is because so many holes have beem ripped in my heart and there is alot of room to spare. I'm greatful for all that I have experianced good and bad alike. Take every experiance you have and love it because its how you have become who you are and if you dont like who you are there is ALWAYS time for change. Be patient, love and it is always Darkest before the sun rises.  Good luck to all those who are searching for their twin may we make a better world when we have them.

(update 07/2013: We were married December 30 2011 though still living in different countries with a hard path to face there is no one I would rather devote myself to entirely and walk my path side by side with.)

mouseykit mouseykit 22-25, F 4 Responses Oct 11, 2009

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Hi, i connect to your story, I have had a long and difficult twin flame awakening to our connection has been full of excitement and beauty (such as past lives of interest lived together) but also pain trouble illness and confusion. I wondered where you were at now? has life become more kind? are you with your twin flame and happy? I am still struggling along, there are good days and bad..we are not together right now tho i think of him every day

We are married now though still living in different countries. So the road ahead still is filled with difficulties but none insurmountable. Some days are good others are bad but I wouldn't trade it for anything easier or less complicated he's the only one for me. All things happen in their own time.

THE REAL ISSUE IS DID YOU SEE YOUR OWN SOUL CHANGE ,WAS IT A TOUCH THAT SET OFF YOUR TWINFLAME MEETING THESE ARE THE REAL THINGS THAT HAPPEN WHEN TWIN SOULS MEET YOU BECOME ONE WITHIN THE WORLD AND YOU UNDERSTAND LIFE AS IT IS MEANT TO BE , YOUR WHOLE LIFE CHANGES AT THAT FIRST MOMENT OF CONTACT AND ITS A WHOLE NEW BEGINING FOR YOU AS YOU EXPLOREYORSELF AND BECOME ONE WITH EVERY LIVING THING AROUND YOU ITS LOVE AT ITS HIGEST POINT SO STRONG THAT NOTHING ELSE WILL DO , ITS REALIZING DEATH IS AN HONOR AND NOT A FEAR THAT EVERYONE HAS BECAUSE NOW YOU LOOK AT DEATH AS A GIFT IN KNOWING THAT SOON YOUR SOUL WILL TRAVEL HOME TO THE FATHER OF CREATION ALONG WITH YOUR OTHER HALF OF ONES SELF

THESE ARE THE REAL EVENTS OF TWIN SOUL ENCOUNTERS AND I HOPE THAT YOU WILL ENJOY MY BOOK WHEN IT COMES OUT THIS YEAR IN SEPT 2010

GOD BLESS

AND MAY EVERYDAY BE A HAPPY AND PROSPERIOUS ONE !

LAWRENCE

This is a very well written story! Thanks for sharing.

I am 16 yrs old i have been told 6 times that my grandfather would one which was recently he was diagnosed with cancer when i was born i know how tough it is 4 u and the best thing to do is to keep the good memories strong and dont forget them