My Sexual Salad

He's been trying to get me to reconsider this whole meeting-a-married-man-in-person-to-become-his-lover idea. But the thing is that I want more.  No, I need more.

I have fun with my **** buddy.  Big fun.  He's more than just a fella who plays with me online so that we can both get off.  We've had countless ******* together over the past couple of years since I first began seeking male companionship on the internets.  He was the first one to get me to have an ****** with a trigger phrase, one so powerful and slightly taboo that it made it hard for a while to climax without it. 

***, ****.

He'd write that to me and I would feel the explosion between my legs travel up my spinal cord to my brain, bursting in waves.  it's not that the phrase itself has all the power, though.  A few other men have used it with no effect whatsoever.  Men for whom I have no particular affection can use it and it moves me not a jot.  I was curious about whether my husband could wield it effectively, and asked him to say the words to me one time.  Spoiler alert:  I did not ***.

My **** buddy thinks I should leave my husband.  He does not approve of my actually sleeping with someone else until I do because he thinks I will get hurt.  He thinks I should not settle for crumbs.  But what he doesn't realize is that I stayed in my marriage so long because I thought that was all I could get.  I've discovered a bounty awaits me and I am developing quite the appetite.

him:  You want to be loved.

milkynips:  oh jesus

there is no pleasing you

this guy wants to be loved too, I think

he chats about many things
he wants a courtesan, I think


him:  This will just be fleeting.

milkynips:  thanks a buttload

his last affair was 6 years
you think I'm a flash in the pan?

him:  Fleeting for you I mean.

milkynips:  oh

we'll see

him:  How can this be satisfying?

I just want you to be happy.

milkynips:  is it satisfying for you, chatting with me?

him:  You are my friend.....
and it is satisfying in that way.

milkynips:  
okay

have supper
 and a good sleep

and we'll talk more soon

him:  But I am a guy.

milkynips:  you are, yes

I've noticed that

him:  All I ask is that you ruminate on that.

milkynips:  the **** was a dead giveaway

him:  On what I have said tonight I mean.

milkynips:  Bahahahah

I will

you just made me laugh
him:  Good.

milkynips:  which triggered a coughing jag

him:  But I never want to make you sad or unsatisfied.

milkynips:  you are dangerous for my health

You don't.
  You're a good friend.

him:  That's not what you wrote in that story today.

milkynips:  You drive me bonkers

him:  Don't be someone who settles for crumbs.

milkynips:  but that doesn't mean I'm sad.

him:  If at anytime our "fun" does not work for you you need to say so.

milkynips:  I'd rather have a few crumbs from you than a banquet from some other men.

and it is FUN, 
not "fun"

him:  Well let my crumbs be the croutons in your sexual salad.