Panic.

I panic about everything. Nothing I do can stop it. I want to stop panicking. I want to stop worrying at the drop of a hat. But I can't. I worry about everything. And every time I go out in public, I feel like everyone is judging me and looking at me. I can't even eat in public without feeling like someone is judging me and thinking I'm fat. I go to the bathroom and just sit there if I feel an anxiety attack coming on in public. Sometimes, I'll even cut myself in the bathroom just to feel alive and less anxious. To make me calm. Anything really. I don't want it to be like this but it is. And I need help, but I don't know how to stop worrying because I worry about everything. I make "mountains out of mole hills" so to speak. I know I shouldn't, but I do and it's so hard to stop. Because once I get a panic attack, it takes forever for me to slow my heart rate down and breathe normally. I just...I want it all to stop.
monkeybutt1993 monkeybutt1993
18-21, F
2 Responses Dec 6, 2012

I know the feeling. It is an emotional hell when anxiety kicks in! I hope it gets better for you and everyone else also experiencing anxiety!

these people are in terrible pain and it is not funny!

sweetie, i'm not making a joke out of anything.