Ive Truely Given Up On Life

OMG!!! You R SOooooo Young! You have your whole life ahead of you. As long as you have your "HEALTH"; ANYTHING is possible for U!! There are educational programs, that will pay for you to obtain a career; & give you $ to live on: (since you are out of work, & don't have a trade). You are very fortunate you HAVE a sister, someone that loves & cares abt. you. (Even if that's not the case, you do have a roof over your head). Believe me I KNOW how it feels to WANT to just give-up!! I was a good looking RN, making great money, (I put myself through college AFTER my husband of 18 years left me & his 2 sons; cuz "he fell in love with a coworker"). I went to 3 colleges at the same time, because I had to hurry & get through school, so I could support us. I did it!! It was NOT easy. But I made some Great friends, & most of the time, we ALL had a good time in nursing school. Fast forward> I was almost murdered by a abusive man; My home flooded 7 times; had 2 Lemon Law car lawsuits,(I won)! My son,arrested, was fighting a 4 yr sentence, he was to afraid to say who really broke the law, (got off on Prob.)! Then after 10 yrs of being divorced; I remarried-Thought, to the Love of my Life! Used me, to take the equity out of my home; after 7 years divorced!. Buried my Mom, My Friend, My 17 yr old son had 7 friends die-7 funerals, of 15-17 yr olds w/in 2 yrs., buried 2 of my loving true companions, 1 dog after only 7 yrs; got another buried her only after 6 yrs. had to bury my Dad's young dog, right after my Mom died. 3 weeks later buried my Uncle. My younger son, (who had tons of friends, a home of his own & a new car), that graduated w/2 Bachelor degrees in Psychology & Biology with a 4.2 GPA; I found out, he's a Heroin addict!!! (Been trying everything I know, to get him clean), Lost my home, (from the divorce of my 2nd husband). Then to top EVERYTHING-OFF, I became "PERMANENTLY DISABLED", with a illness that there isn't ANY treatment or cure! (4 yrs ago). I Can No Longer work; (& I Loved being a RN, & the $ WAS Great). Now I am living with my 80 yr old father, NO Home, No Money, No Friends (NO-ONE understands this weird illness I have)! I never heard of it, until I was diagnosed w/ it, after 2 years! I am 99% homebound, I've lost 40 lbs & look awful now, I am a ONLY child, No relatives, & I have No one, ZERO!!! Not even my father! (He is busy doing his own thing). Nobody Cares if I am alive or Dead; NOBODY would even Notice! (I've left-out a LOT, believe it or not)! I always thought if I had to live a life like this; I WOULDN'T!!! But, the Crazy thing is- I "STILL" have HOPE!! WHY??? Who, the**** Knows! IF; I had my health, life would be "Wonderful"! There is ALL types of possibilities; as long as you have your health, No-Matter how bad Life Seems! So get out there; do some research, talk, talk & talk to as many people UNTIL you get into a Trade-College, or a Junior College, or "On the Job Training". Go Volunteer, meet people!! U never know; it could lead to a job! & some good friends. I've really had some wonderful times in my life; BEFORE I lost my health! Life is Full of wonderful things to see & do! Look forward to those times! This is JUST Temporary for you! I KNOW it Feels Awful & It feels like things will Never be Good; But they will!! It just depends, How hard are you willing to work to achieve what you want; & How much are you willing to give-up to reach those goals? (For the 5 years I was in college, I studied & studied, & raised my sons). That's it!! But, it was sure worth it! I felt So good about myself, & all I accomplished; ALL by myself! Then, I could Not believe the $, I was making, doing a job I loved. But, in a "FLASH" it is ALL Gone! So you see? You DO have a Great chance to STILL HAVE a GREAT LIFE!!! Don't waste-it; cause it ALL can be gone; when you least expect it. "BEST OF LUCK TO YOU", & DO NOT GIVE-UP, this is ONLY TEMPORARY!! (you will get discouraged at times, but do Not let it stop you from reaching your goals, & dreams)!!! Because eventually you WILL get there. "Just a Friend"-(with wings)

Go to God in prayer. I have been through bad tough times. Prayer was the best help. You could try to have someone from a job you could be interested in to help you get to work. Go to a self esteem group,a positive group to help you. Maybe your family could help drive you to work till you can afford a car. Make friends at a local church. Do volunteer work like an animal shelter, food bank, charity thrift store. Read a of positive thinking, spiritual books, Holy Scripture, prayer books. There is on the internet The Compassion Network, The Shift Network, Awakening to Abundance, CTR radio, that have a lot of information that could help you. The Shift Network right now has a world wide Winter of Wellness Conference to help us all during our rough times. This is a free program. There are a lot of good websites that are being setting up to help us. They have a lot of positive uplifting webcast talks that will help you. They are always ongoing, and very supportive. Read my articles Alicehath "I've Been Changed". A lot of people have made supportive comments. They really love what I write. I really do care. Contact me if you want. I really love to hear from you.