It Changed How I Think

I was 16 years old when my boyfriend got me pregnant for the first time. We kept it a secret because we were too scared to tell our parents, and a few weeks later I lost the baby. We were both very upset, but were far to young to be parents also... Since then, I have been having problems with my ovaries and before I turned 19 this year, my boyfriend once again got me pregnant. It was a shock to us because I was on the pill when it happened, but we are both in college now and we wanted the baby bad. We told our families the news and just when they were getting used to the idea I had another miscarriage. I feel like somehow it was my fault, even though I know it wasn't... But we both wanted the baby so bad that losing it has changed us and we both find it very painful to be around others with babies. I am so scared that I won't be able to have a healthy pregnancy...
Born2BeAMother Born2BeAMother
18-21, F
1 Response Apr 6, 2009

I know how u feel every time my boyfriends daughter comes over and i look at her .. i feel bad cause his previous girl friend could give him a daughter and i feel like i have failed him twice! It hurts for me to look at others with their babies I just want to cry but I dont want my boyfriend to see me cry!