Make Me Feel Used And Cheap

I had a few one night stands in my life and i came to a conclusion that i cant stand one them. Hah..
It was quite exiting at first couse i was very young and i thought oh that guy likes me so much im so hot. They sort of boosted my self esteem and made me feel cool among my friends. But then i became older i realised that guys especially then drunk are prepared to **** almost anyone even if a girl looks like she's been hit by a truck. So its not so much of a compliment and more of the opposite really. Never mind that the sex was really not good all of the times. Either couse most guys were just terrible at it or because i was constantly scared that ill get STD, he'll turn out to be some freak etc...and generally being awkward around a stranger. Also now it makes me feel extremely cheap, used and quite the opposite of sexy and pretty.
So i came to a conclusion? Whats the point? All a get are the disgusting feelings afterwards.
Dont think im ever having a one night stand ever again.
LaraWantsCandy LaraWantsCandy
18-21, F
3 Responses May 21, 2012

Funny thing: I feel the same...used, trotted out and made to perform, leaving me feeling empty and unfulfilled.<br />
I am not saying I didn't enjoy it at the time -- a stiff **** has no conscience -- but afterwards...<br />
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I need the emotional attachment of a long-term relationship, feeling loved and appreciated.<br />
I make love, I don't have sex. It is a big difference, if only in my mind!<br />
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So, as far as I am concerned, you are on the right track! (Although, there are a lot of guys that won't agree with me).

I feel the same way. It's not really worth it, the guy didn't know what I liked in bed and it just made it terrible. The STD things loomed over my head for days as well. So forget it, I'll try a relationship first than sex.

You are being wise not to anymore,disease,the feelings you get etc.You will have dignity and self respect if you don't anymore.Good for you to consider yourself first.Thanks for sharing.