I Thought I Was Having A Heart Attack

I had my first-ever panic attack today. I've had issues with anxiety for years but I've always managed it pretty well (as far as these things go, well, you know what I mean) but today I was sitting on the couch, perfectly fine, and suddenly my heart went "beeeeeaaaaat" and did a weird long slow beat and then beat-beat-beat-beat! I immediately went to get a glass of water (not sure what I thought that would do for me...) and as I was drinking my heart continued to pound out a weird rhythm and I got dizzy. I thought "Holy crap, I am only 30 years old and I am going to drop dead of a heart attack. I don't want to die." I went upstairs to tell my husband I was dying but by the time I got there I couldn't feel my hands anymore. The feeling spread all the way up to my elbows and I started to cry. I thought for a moment I had been poisoned as I got all jittery. My husband had me lay down and suggested I prop my feet up (my response "NO!" and he goes "why not?" and I yell "I DON'T KNOW!" and he says "Trust me, it's the best thing" and I cried "Okay.. but I need my blood!"... it all made perfect sense to me at the time) he knew I was having a panic attack at this point and so did I. I started to cry a little again (I was just scared, I guess, or maybe my eyeballs just short circuited?) and then my legs went numb. That really freaked me out. I just started to breathe more slowly while my vision went black around the edges. My husband sat with me and told me everything was okay and he made me laugh, which helped a lot. It's hard to convince yourself you're dying if you're laughing, I found out today. Anyway, the whole thing lasted 20 minutes but my arms felt weird for another half hour after that. I didn't not enjoy the experience at all and I feel very tired now. I am going to the doctor to get therapy - I've just been fighting on too many fronts and the troops are exhausted. I hope this doesn't happen to me when I am alone or in public. Thanks for reading :)
TooManyFronts TooManyFronts
26-30, F
1 Response May 25, 2012

Well, now you know what it feels like, you can listen to your body a bit more - when you feel it coming on, go and lie down in a dark room or otherwise consciously relax. Do go to see your doctor though - you MAY have had a heart attack, or atrial fibrillation. Your doctor can do a quick blood test and rule a heart attack out (or in).<br />
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Good luck!