Panic Rules My Life

I have been having panic attacks for years now. It mainly manifests itself when I take the bus. Crowded buses drive my panic into overdrive. Before I thought it was because of my stressful job - going to a stressful situation, but I have since gotten a job that I love. The bus rides have become very distressing. I take lorazapam daily to deal with the stress, however, I also suffer from severe IBS. Therefore I am always nervous that I will have an accident on the bus and this is what my mind dwells on. For awhile it was ok, but as of recently my husband and I have split because my illness makes him angry rather than supportive. I have become a creature of routine...walk to the mall instead of catching the bus at the stop closest to my house, using the washroom before I leave the mall. Sometimes I only make it to the next stop before I see a hoard of people getting on and I feel the need to jump off and wait for the next bus (it has to be very empty). It is becoming very rare that I make it all the way to work without stopping many times. Even waiting at the bus stop with my son or waiting in line at the grocery store has become unbearable. I need some kind of help...I just want to be a "normal" person...I have gotten to the point that I couldn't leave my house at all and I don't want to be that person again...does anyone have advice to give? It would be much appreciated.

Thank you for reading...

Shan
ShanUnder ShanUnder
36-40
1 Response Dec 5, 2012

Hey Shan, I hope all is well. I know how frustrating that can be. I suffered from pretty extreme panic and agoraphobia for several years but in the end managed to overcome it by just changing my perspective on fear. The fact of the matter is that a panic attack and an adrenaline rush are the same thing, except that panic attacks are caused entirely in our own minds and since there isn't actually anything wrong with us, then we invent things to be scared of. The best way to overcome fear is really just to have a let whatever will be, be attitude to life. I know it's hard at the onset, but with time you'd be amazed how far you can go. I actually went from agoraphobic to travelling the world by simply changing my attitude.I hope that helps