Losing It, Lost It, Can't Find It, What's His Name And The Other Guy.

I was always an athlete and never had any regard for my body or my future health. I've had so many concussions that I don't know where to begin. From crashing my bike to falling down on the ice, to playing football like I was in the NFL, I think I've been involved in about a dozen car accidents. The last one was a doozy, head on collision doing about 80Km/hr or 55Mph. Ever since that one I've had mood swings, anger, depression, anxiety, memory loss. In high school I could do complex mathematical equations in my head no problem, now I have difficulty with basic math skills. It's like my brain is miss firing all the time. Never remember peoples names. I lose my eye focus all the time, like my brain shuts down all by itself. I have to write everything down or I will forget it almost immediately. Horrible with numbers now, when that used to be a strength. I have a 7y.o. daughter now and it's very sad sometimes trying to think back of the things we've done together and I can't remember. I feel like I have Alzheimer’s or something and I'm going to be turning 43 next month. Sometimes it feels like my life is falling apart around me and it's out of control. I can see myself alone and out of work because of it. Wish I knew what to do about it. My doctor just thinks I'm depressed and wants to shove pills down my throat. I gave them a shot for my wife but non of it helped, everything had a side effect that was worse than my depression. It's more the memory loss and my brain not working when I'm trying to work. Makes things difficult when you work in engineering. Everything seems to be spiralling out of control but what solution is out there? Heard about Bernie Kosar today talking about a place in Florida doing research but I'm sure you need to be a millionaire to afford treatment. I'm willing to be a ginea pig for research, can't get much worse.
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46-50, M
Jan 11, 2013