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What Exactly Is Love Anyway?

I was 14 when i met him, 9th grade. He was a year older and stayed back in first grade. He was funny, and with me not having a real boyfriend before i didn't see a reason to not be his girlfriend.

We went out for six and a half months, and i gave him my virginity when i was 15 (stupid) and he gave me his, after we were going out for six months. I was in love with him, no one ever made me feel the way he did. He bought me a neclace, ring, he worked with his dad so he could afford to take me out to the movies, and out to dinner, young love. I made him all sorts of things, gave him some baby pictures of me, we promised eachother forever and always.

About two weeks after giving him my virginity, I went to Vermont for a weekend, and he didn't text me the whole time or call or anything (when we used to text literally every minute). i finally got ahold of him and he told me he hung out with Carla, at the skate park and all the excuses imaginable about why he  couldn't talk to me. I didn't like it, but i wasn't going to yell at him and risk losing him, so a week later, he changed phone batteries with her and talked about her all the time and changed his phone background to something from when he went to her house. He even wore a shirt he ripped the bottom off cause she had a cut. He finally said to me we shouldn't go out because we were fighting alot, i said "fine but if you go out with carla within the next month ill be mad at you". We broke up

Two days later, him and Carla are going out.

Now this guy was my first love and I was heart broken, i remember going to a car show with my dad, not talking the whole time, not eating for 4 days.. I remember hearing "tell me what it takes to let you go"-Aerosmith on the radio.. that killed me.

3 weeks later he broke up with her (after having sex with her.. and they were together for 3 weeks) , she Over dosed on advil (she was fine) and he asked me back out. ofcourse i said yes.. i loved him. I told him we had to start all over and he said he understands.

A month later he was going over this girls house and sleeping over there( i was obviously stupid not to do anything) he'd walk around school with her but she didnt seem like she hated me, i really didnt think anything of it. Then i realized it was horrible, he was ignoring me, he would say "ily" not "i love you" he'd call me "Brandy" not "baby" thats when i realized .. he was losing interest.

A couple days later he was wearing another girls hoodie in school during lunch. My friends Mary and Dani told me I had better come to math class a single girl. So he walked me to my locker to get my math book, i took his hoodie out of my locker and gave it to him. He asked me why i was giving it to him and i told him we were done. He walked off and he cried, i cried.

A day later he started going out with Stacey, and she threatened to slit my throat, we almost got into a fist fight, but it just stayed verbal. A couple months later he did the same thing to her that he did to me. Stacey beat up his newest girlfriend (steph).

I am friends with Carla ironically lol, only because she really thought joe loved her, and shes nice. Stacey apologized to me after joe cheated on her (karma).

Its been about a year and a half since ive talked to him. he dropped out of school, his mom still says hi to me when she sees me lol idk why.

But sadly i still cant forget things.. like his phone number, the day he asked me out, the day i lost my virginity..

Tbh i am over him, i just wonder about him sometimes .. but maybe thats normal because hes my first

This is a true story.

DearShadow DearShadow 18-21, F 4 Responses May 27, 2010

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He definitely sounds like a horrific person, playing with people as he pleases. I'm glad you took the step to break it off. You can't change what happened, these memories you still hold, but you can about how you lead your life in the future. Be careful and try to stay positive!

He definitely sounds like a horrific person, playing with people as he pleases. I'm glad you took the step to break it off. You can't change what happened, these memories you still hold, but you can about how you lead your life in the future. Be careful and try to stay positive!

the bad guy's are aound be careful honey <br />
i am heart broken too <br />
but life goes on <br />
what can i do :D am smiling and trying to forget

Well if its an imagination story so its so inspired,and if its a true story so its so sad. But what I know that there is no any happy ending relationship can start with out a real investigated and reviewed history about the other partner,so forget what was in the past and open a new page in your life .