God Forbid....

God forbid I shared what I thought sometimes, god people would be scared shitliess. I have never shared some things with some people, because I couldn't bare with the thought of them knowing what was going on through my mind, I just didn't want to do that. I guess that is when my outside of Ep journal comes in handy, because I KNOW no one would ever see that, but sometimes, I wish there was just someone, just one person who i could fill ALL of my thoughts with....but I don't think I'd ever trust, and ever feel comfortable enough with someone that much, also, I just don't want to hurt anyone, so that is hwy, even though I say a LOT, I don't say it ALL.
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2 Responses Jul 19, 2010

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I know exactly what you mean. EP is about as close as I've ever come to finding somewhere that I can share what I think and even here I don't do it 100% though I want to. I just don't think I can trust that much. Perhaps it is the fear that no one can understand or that if I did share, I would push everyone away. Though, I have to say, the friends I have made on here have been amazing and wonderful. It's a small group but I love them because no matter what I say, they accept me for what and who I am. True friends will never give up on you no matter what. <br />
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I find that sometimes, I'm my own worst enemy. Yet, it wasn't until I started sharing my thoughts and feelings that I discovered that I'm not as much as a freak that I always thought I was lol. There are, believe it or not, people just as crazy as I am out there! I know! You would have thought it. lol. It takes time to trust though and a whole hell of a lot of courage. <br />
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But, yeah, I know what you mean. It will be nice to someday find someone I trust so completely that I am willing to share every single thought inside of this mind with.