Im So Upset... I Just Need Some Ppl To Talk To

It started with a small paper like cut on my labia. I had once b4 cut myself using the cheap toilet paper at work and I thought I did this again. Well 2 days later it was no better. My glands started to swell it hurt and itched to pee and then the lesions rapidly multiplied from one to ten plus in a matter of a short time. I admitted myself to the hospital at 1 am on fri. Knowing id have a chance of having an std or sti. In that mean time I have no family here and the shame of telling my mother was just not an option to call her. I called my Bff and told a friend of about 5 mo now. I thought it'd b better to tell a female friend close to the hospital. BIG MISTAKE. not only am I scared bc im not sure what anything is yet my neighbor/friend told more ppl. The rumor spread that I have hiv. Which I never ever mentioned. They treated me for everything but my gynos guess is chlamydia and possibly herpes. Im still waiting on results but im so scared. If its herpes I know im going to become depressed considering how upset I already am. The pain from the lesions is nearly unbearable. I got lucky and my dr gave me norco and motrin which made the pain go from extreme to very very very mild. I can sleep comfortably! I've still been smoking a lot of marijuana as it takes an edge off of me. But I just don't know how I am going to b able to live with this. The pain is tremendous and I already had to take work off.. I have a few supportive friends which I've been talking to any time I start to get really upset but I want to talk to someone who's in my boat...please help
liljippers426 liljippers426
5 Responses Jan 29, 2012

No need to be upset since so many people have it and live a normal life with it.

I've had herpes for a few years, and usually use acyclovir cream and famcyclovir pills for it. I guess those help a bit, but I heard good things about hsv-zero topical treatment, and I'll chime in and recommend it. It speeds up the healing a lot, and sometimes prevents the outbreak altogether for me, if I slather it on when I get itchy.

IM IN YOUR BOAT! I know how your feeling right now, and by the sounds of your symptoms and does unfortunately sound like herpes! The swallow glands (how painful is it) the itchyness, the stinging ! I've been there , and it is really horrible ! I got dignosed about 5 months ago, I cried for 2 days straight in a little ball behind by door screaming I wanted to die. It's very hard coming to terms with, it just kills you inside. What I can tell you , is things do get better , in the next 2 months after I found out, I was back to my normal self, i did find it hard to be around a lot of people at the same time, I would sit there and look around knowing I was different and how lucky they all were for not having it , I would often have to leave the room because it got too much ! Every now & then I do get upset about it, but it is what it is , when I had sex I accepted the risk of catching an std , as do everyone, but I don't think anyone realizes how easy it is too catch things. I will have herpes till the day I die , it's hard to come to grips with , I don't think I ever will. But for the time being I just have to take each day as it comes. You can still have a perfectly normal life :) I wish you luck & strength , I know it's hard , I'm only 17 and now I believe I can conquer anything !

Well, your desc<x>ription sounds very painful.<br />
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There are several antiviral drugs that treat herpes such as Valtrex. However, Valtrex and others have potential side effects. <br />
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If you are the type to look into more natural remedies, you may with to look into Gene-Eden-Vir. (google it.)

*wish to look into Gene-Eden-Vir.

well maybe it is something that will be easy to cure and it will be ok after all. wait for the lab results before you stress too much more...