My Hurtful Memory
It was pretty screwed up how I got genital herpes but when you don't use protection even with the one you think that you can trust herpes can be one of the less severe outcomes. I was eighteen at the time and I was in a relationship with a man of whom I had know for a few years beforehand through my sisters boyfriend. I was a virgin so when we got together and became intimate I thought I was in love but I didn't know that he was sleeping around on me also. We were together for 3 months before I had an outbreak on my genitals but I had never seen actual pictures of genital herpes but I had heard of it. I didn't know what it was so I thought it was an allergic reaction from hygienic products I had used and so I figured it would go away on its own but it didn't. It was very itchy and painful so after a week I asked my sister if she could accompany me to the doctors to see what was going on. When the doctor told me that it was genital herpes I couldn't believe it and I started crying because I didn't understand why this was happening to me. I confronted my boyfriend about but he made it seem like there was nothing wrong with him but he would go to the doctors anyway. After he had gotten checked out he told me that his test came up clean but I knew he was lying because he was the only one I was with. It hurt more than anything to be told I had herpes but it hurt worst when he made it seem like I had slept around and gotten it on my own. Soon after that our relationship was over and I was alone trying to figure out if anyone would ever want to be with me again. This was 12 years ago and it's still hard to deal with sometimes. I'm currently seeing an older man who has the same STD as myself. Some people say it gets easier as time goes on and it does but its still a depressing issue for me but I am and will continue to be ok :).