Ruined My Teen Years

Hi I'm 16 years old and have been dealing with HS for almost 2 1/2 years now. It started when I was about 14 almost fifteen. I have it in between my breast and it's been destroying my life. I use to be really fun loving and was always the person in my group of friends that was constantly energetic and loved myself. Though now, my self esteem has dropped drastically and I can't even stand to look at the body I'm suppose to love and be proud of. Before my struggle with HS I had to deal with another skin condition. It was called something like molluscum? I don't really remember it. But anyway, They are in the wart family and look like small white pimples. Doesn't sound too bad, until I went to the dermatologist. He put me on this sorta new skin cream that wa suppose to get of the warts fast and easy... Yeah not at all. Instead the part of skin thats inside your arm in the crease.. Was completely burned off. I was in eighth grade at the time and all I wore we long sleeve shirts and I alway made up an excuse to wear and elbow pad in gym. I could never wear cut short sleeve shirts (even what it was hot as balls in the school). Finally the disgusting and painful burning of the skin went anyway and it is now a scar that will sometimes turn red. Then just a few months later I started feeling this pain in my chest between my breasts. I saw and it look almost like a huge zit coming through. My mon and I left it alone until it got worse. Finally went to the dermotologist and BAM it was HS. I was finally getting over my horrible molluscum and now another curse. Ever since them it has gotten worse even though I'm currently take long term antibiotics. It's pretty much destroyed my whole cleavage area, which sucks even more because I actually use to love my breasts. Only thing I was ever really happy about. I have big boobs (d cup) and I liked them. Now i can't stand them. I recently turned 16 and I'm still dealing with this. My mom made an appt with a gyno so I can go on birth control because our dermotologist said it would help. I'm so terrified it won't. Ever since I've gotten the news about this I cannot remember the last time I actually felt happy about myself or thought I was pretty. I don't wanna deal with this anymore. I thought venting to people who've been in my situation would help me. Thanks if you took the time to read this.
keeewey123 keeewey123
May 19, 2012