I Have Hpv.

I was raped when I was 13, I've told only my mom, dad, and my bf. My mom and dad didn't believe me, they were always drugged up and didn't care, and I also find out that my mom was sleeping with the guy. Well me and my bf has been together since the day I turned 12 and has been there for me everyday since, I'm about to turn 19, when I told him he tried beating the guys *** but the guy moved. Well about 3 months ago my bf noticed I had knots "down there", I went to the doctor to get an exam, my doctor diagnosed me with HPV (Genital Warts) I was furious. I thought that maybe my bf had cheated on me, we had a long talk, he went and got tested, he was negative. We didn't tell anyone, I was rummaging through my mom's bathroom looking for something and I stumbled upon some creams and oils, I googled them and turns out I wasn't the only one with HPV. The guy who had raped me 6 years ago gave me HPV. I finally said something to my mom and all she did was cry and said she was sorry. We haven't talked about it since. It hasn't really affected me and my bf, if anything it has made us stronger. He takes me to my Cryotherapy appointments and holds my hand, it's only a matter of time before he gets it. I feel so bad about it, I mean it bothers me when I think I'm going to have this for the rest of my life. I can't stand the outbreaks now, I can't imagine how it's going to be when I decide to have kids. It's hard. I just don't know what I did to deserve this..
brittanymichelle1993 brittanymichelle1993
18-21, F
6 Responses May 8, 2012

I'm sorry about that :( You don't deserve that, no one does. You're lucky you have someone who cares about you there with you. The people here care about you too, just in spirit :)

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I am very sad to hear about your very hurtful experiences. I was raped as well, about a year ago, and now have HPV. I think its wonderful that your boyfriend has always been there for you. I have not even told my bf about what happened, though he knows I have the virus. It will be a hard pill to swallow because we both were virgins when we started dating.<br />
I know genital warts are be hard to deal with, but for the most part they are cosmetic and cause no real harm, may just not look the best or may be painful. Stay positive in the fact that you seem to have an awesome boyfriend and that genital warts are not deadly :)<br />
And when you decide to have kids you can get a c-section so your children will not contract it. You did not deserve what happened to you, you did nothing wrong.<br />
I hope what I, and the other comments have said has brought you a bit of peace.<br />
I will check back here now and then in hopes that you might have responded! :)<br />
<br />
-Lolahh

you might try visiting the web site www.sandf.org and see if it offers any help . <br />
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take care. be well. <br />
<br />
C

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that's so sad!

I'm slowly coming to peace with it, it's just hard. I really hope my body comes over it though, I hate the painful procedures. :/