New To This NightmareHey all,
So last week I got diagnosed with warts. To say I was surprised is an understatement. I have never been one to be promiscuous and in the last 5 years have slept with two people both long term partners one which ended in April. Before that there was one mistake about 7 years ago and my first ever boyfriend.
I am having a very hard time dealing with this diagnosis. After speaking with a specialist I have figured out that I would be one in 400 who would get his disease, why I ask couldn't I e the other 399 which mostly have the disease but will need know!
I feel tainted, lonely, angry, filthy and like I won't have any semblance of a good future. My future as I can see it is one of a fear of outbreaks, of a fear of meeting anybody and a fear of being lonely.
I understand I can get rid of the warts but its not the physical side that hurts its the pychological side. I know thy say most people cure it within 2 yeArs but that isn't fact! Why can't they do research to see f you can actually 100% be cleared. It seems to me like there isn't much research done into low risk because it Isn't cancer causing yet I believe the stress it causes would be linked to cancer down the road! I've quit smoking started eating more fruit and veg and started taking multi vitamins but I dot know why I need to bother when I don't think I will ever find a man with this condition even if I have been outbreak free etc. I know this sounds selfish but what bothers me also is that the person I believe I caught it from (last boyf, who had a lot of orevious partners) has apparently never showed signs of it so gets away Scott free.
Can anyone please let me know if these feelings are irrational and when they should go away?
Newbie86 26-30, F 2 Responses 0 Aug 4, 2013