I just recently discovered that I have HSV. My boyfriend of 4 years, and the father of my child, has completely thrown me under the bus. He tells me that all of this is my fault and that I have ruined his life, although he has not yet been diagnosed. He refuses to go get tested and he has left me as a result of all of this. I am very young and I am in school and I have a beautiful daughter but this this has hit me like a ton of bricks. I find myself crying all of the time and wishing that there was something that I could do to fix all of this. I feel like no one is ever going to want to be with me because of this and that I might as well just give up now because it won't make any difference. I literally have no one to turn to and I am so terrified of someone finding out about this. I need support from somewhere and I am afraid of what will happen if I don't get some. I have just lost all hope in everything and I want to get back to where I was before my diagnosis. If anyone can please help me and just be a friend, I really need someone.