Thinking Of A Better World Minus Hyperhydrosis

Here is my lovely story..I noticed that I wasn't the same as my other friends when I was about eleven years old when I hit puberty ( yes i developed boobs way quicker than my friends). All my friends had lovely smelling deodorants but whenever I used deodorant i always used to sweat more and then the deodorants never smelt nice as this I realized became a huge problem growing up.
I went through school having a small friendship group and I had always been a shy girl mainly because of the sweating but i carried on nonetheless and always did well at school.
The hyperhydrosis affected me most at high school. We had to wear blouses which obviously showed the sweat more and we had blazers which would get very hot and make the sweating worse. I started to be distant from my friends not walking up the two blocks of stairs to see them at breaks and I became a very isolated girl I hated school I would sit there wanting the lesson to be over and wanting to go home so I could escape to my little world where I was a popular girl who looked pretty and did really well with making friends and going out a lot but this was not me.
I used to wash under my arms constantly especially when my boyfriend was around and it embarrassed me because I knew he knew that I had a problem but I pushed it to one side and being with him made me forget about the problem. After a while my arms were almost powdery because I had over washed them and i had yellow stains under my school blouses which I was constantly putting in the wash and I always had to wear a jumper which just made me hotter.
I remember a time the day before birthday I had been to a country fayre and went to my then boyfriends house gave him a hug (his friend was also there and we didn't really get on) I went to watch him and his friend play on the xbox and he leaned over and said to me 'L i think you need to go and put some deodorant on'- I am sure his friend heard. I felt so low at this point especially as I knew we were going shopping on my birthday (and I hate going shopping because I get chlostrophobic and sweat more and then just want to go home). I was with this guy from 13 years old til I was 16 and even though I never talk to him now I don't know what I would have done without him there because I was bullied very badly at school nobody understood what I was going through they just looked disgusted and this made me incredibly depressed I just wanted to leave school early.
I have always suffered with depression. After school I went to college but shortly after this me and my boyfriend broke up. I started to skive school getting the bus to the city but then meeting up with this loser boy all the time and I only got one AS level. I struggled so much that year and went completely off the rails texting loads of guys and getting drunk all the time and the worst thing was that I knew i could do better.
It was this year that I met my current boyfriend who I have been with since 2010. I used to think he was a casanova but I loved him and I thought that he would never go for me because of my hyperhydrosis but eventually we got together I saw another softer side to him but I always brace myself that he will leave me because I sweat and find a better girlfriend there is this image of the girl i want to be in my head just like when i was at school but i don't think i will ever be her now and accept this.
My sweating makes me very insecure, I never go to the pub with my boyfriend or go clubbing and we argue about this because he wants me to go and I hate him going because I do not trust the other girls there and I worry about him when he is out but i do not say anything I act like i don't care because i fear that he will think that i'm trying to control him and end up lying to me.
I have been to the hospital on my own without any support to try and seek help for this condition. Currently I put a roll on on at night called Dryclor but this does not help much even though i have recently lost a stone and it irritates my skin greatly when I go to bed it is itchy and sore but i keep using it. I will be starting iontophoresis in about a month i hope to god that this helps as I need to start living my life not existing and sitting in on my own all the time with no friends. I am worried about the treatment because i have to have 7 sessions in four weeks and the hospital is a two hour bus journey from my house. When i previously went to the hospital I lied to my boyfriend about where I was going i am far too embarrassed to tell him about the condition although I know he probably knows already. I hope I have the courage to tell him one day as this is causing problems in our relationship- i only told my dad about this last week so he now understands more. It is horrible how this condition can affect your life so much.
After my treatment I will be given a machine to take home to top up the treatment I am worried because I am told these cost 300 pounds but I am sure things will fall into place and there will be a solution if not where do I go from here...
strawberrycherry strawberrycherry
18-21, F
7 Responses May 23, 2012

hey there!!! dont worry there is a solution (not cure though)....Pls try ROBINUL (generic glycopyrolate)....search the internet for it
Type (ask paitient + robinul)in the google and click on the first address....Hope its gonna change ur life for BETTER....ALL THE VERY BEST

hey there!!! dont worry there is a solution (not cure though)....Pls try ROBINUL (generic glycopyrolate)....search the internet for it
Type (ask paitient + robinul)in the google and click on the first address....Hope its gonna change ur life for BETTER....ALL THE VERY BEST

hey there!!! dont worry there is a solution (not cure though)....Pls try ROBINUL (generic glycopyrolate)....search the internet for it
Type (ask paitient + robinul)in the google and click on the first address....Hope its gonna change ur life for BETTER....ALL THE VERY BEST

It is so nice to finally meet someone who is too ashamed to tell anyone! I have had this condition for 8 years - and i am the master at disguising it. Nobody has ever asked about it and nobody (To the best of my knowledge) has ever noticed it. I tried to tell my mum a few years ago but she thought it was because I was too hot at work. I've never had the courage to explain it properly. It never affected me socially. My friends never found out because i never excersised near them, avoided every situation which would annoy the condition and always wore black or white. Its lovely to hear your story and i hope the treatment lessens or abolishes your symptoms

thanks guys :) having my iontephrensis (this isnt how you spell it :L) treatment end of june all six appointments booked. then you get a machine to use at home heard this is pricey but I know things will work out and there will be a solution.<br />
Just passed my driving test but no car yet so will have to bus 20 miles to the hospital guess I need to tell my boyfriend because I can't keep disappearring for three weeks but the thought of it makes me panic because I have lied to him before saying I have met up with my god mum when I have gone to the hospital all on my own :(<br />
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The most fascinating thing about all this is that our stories are all the same struggling to live up with the world the pain inside and the desire for something better, it only shows one thing , that we hh sufferers are not what the world thinks we r , we are beautiful and could offer much more for the glory of this world

I hear you darl.<br />
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Oh I feel your pain. All sounds sooooo soooo familiar.<br />
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I would like to offer you some advice. And it is only now that I can devulge.<br />
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Please try Perspi-Guard. It comes in a small bottle, costs about $40 Aus. I don't know where you are from, but try get hold of some. It has changed the world around me, for now anyway. :)