At 12 I started to notice a mood and personality change and have chalked up my sadness, mood swings, lack of interest, and inconsistent insomnia to near comatose states to being a pre-teen/teenager. Finally, at the age of 18 I decided to see a psychologist and was immediately diagnosed with major depressive disorder within an hour. I was prescribed Klonopins and Celexa to combat the insomnia and depression. After the first week of taking the celexa I was so nauseous I couldn't move and spent a lot of time over the toilet. The second week I was so fatigued I couldn't get out of bed. The third week I went manic and by the end of the week my mood swings had led me to slit my wrist and end up in the psych ward. During my intake in the ER they ran blood panels that revealed that my thyroid was hyper. After 2 more full blood panels over the period of 2 months they confirmed my hyperthyroidism.
With depression and hyperthyroidism having such similar symptoms no one is quite sure if all of my emotional anguish is accredited to the hyperthyroidism or depression.
However, I understand the conflict of having a mental disorder in addition to an auto-immune disease... And it's hell. Both are such emotionally and physically draining diseases and its more than hard to fight both.

I just turned 19 and since I was diagnosed with both only a few months ago I've been at my wits end trying to find something or someone to ease my struggling.
I'm nauseous constantly which has aided the hyperthyroidism in making me a sickly looking stick and I wish I could go back to eating 10 slices of pizza or 3 pints of ice cream in one sitting.
I'm so scared of the thyroid treatments and I'm tired of (without being reasonably provoked) crying all the time. I feel so helpless and even though I have support it's not the same as having someone who understands actually living with these diseases and it's incredibly frustrating.
How does one happily live with this?
Bobbyckat Bobbyckat
22-25, F
1 Response Aug 15, 2014

I have been contemplating on going to the doctor. I don't know what the hell is wrong with me or if I'm going crazy!! I feel nauseated almost every day, losing weight, and my appetite is almost always poor with exception to morning. I do notice I feel anxious a lot and I'm tired of people telling me I'm so skinny. I'm to the point where I don't know if I possibly have a disease like hyperthyroidism or if some symptoms just causing me to have worry/anxiety. I also sometimes have insomnia..