Last Night Was The Worst

I woke up (but I guess I was still half dreaming) to see a rifle barrel coming through the window next to my bed. It was so real I frantically climbed out of bed screaming "no, no", I jammed my knee as I tripped out of bed, for a second I coward at the end of my bed then realized my cell phone was in between me and the gunman, I was waiting for the gun to go off, I was waiting to be shot. It was terrifying. I ran out of my room expecting to hear a blast from the gun, I grabbed the cordless phone in my office, trying to hide from all the windows thinking that he might have followed me around the house and pushed the button on. I was about to call 911 when something made me rethink if what I saw was real or not. I know the sensation, fear and pain of jamming my knee into the floor climbing out of bed was real. It took awhile for me to get a grip on myself but I did, I turned on my bedroom light and sat back down on my bed. I didn't think I'd ever get back to sleep. 

I've had many of these dreams where I wake up and see someone standing in my room, I've even had the dream of a rifle barrel coming through my window blinds. I've had these dreams vivid enough to move me physically but never so far as to leave a room, never long enough for me to coware at the end of my bed while still seeing the image in my dream. It's never been this real before. I was just waiting for the blast of the gun and I was wondering how bad it would hurt if it didn't kill me. 

No I don't do drugs, I don't take anything for depression even though lately I've been thinking maybe I should. I do have a beer or two in the evening but not even enough to get tipsy so I don't think that's the problem. I've been having this type of dream since I was a lot younger, I'm not sure when they started but I do remember being quite scared of them when they first happened but never to the extent of last night. 

I've always been the type to figure out my problems which is how I ended up on this site, doing homework on the type of dream I had. I'd like to find a solution to them, it'd be nice to not have to wonder what I'm going to wake up to next. I read that sleep deprevation tends to make these worse and that I have a lot of; I haven't slept good in years.

Anyways. You can call me Missy. This is part of my story.
fiveminutestillbedtime fiveminutestillbedtime
31-35, F
1 Response Aug 14, 2010

i used to have hypnagogic hallucinations pretty frequently a few years ago but thankfully, they don't happen as often nowadays. i guess i'm also lucky in that i get sleep paralysis so i can't run around and get hurt or anything (but not being able to move is also really scary!). from what i've read, sleep deprivation and stress are factors. i got them most frequently in high school when i often got 3-4 hours of sleep a night and was trying to deal with untreated depression. maybe see a doctor about sleep medication? if you do think depression could be an issue or if you're at least feeling more stressed out than usual, a psychologist or therapist might be able to help too. like maybe the repeating rifle hallucinations are representative of some other fear that you could talk about with a therapist? <br />
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i hope that helps somewhat...glad to hear you're a problem solver too :) the good thing is that there's a lot more information about hypnagogic and hypnapompic hallucinations on the internet than when i started looking 7 years ago!