Undiagnosed Impulsive PsychologistI am a final year undergraduate in psychology and the more literature I read about impulse control issues the more I realise that I actually have problems with impulse control and it's kind of scaring me now. As a child my mom took me to see have behaviourist psychologist who just passed me off as a naughty child. I was never happy as a child, I was agressive towards my younger brother and counsins and if I didn't get things my way I would hit myself around the head with something or kick the doors (I find that I still do these things today). As a child I also used to develop obsessions with things, for example eat the same food everyday and also take obsessions with TV shows and pop bands to the very extreme (i.e. it was all I'd watch or all I'd listen to for weeks on end), this aspect of behaviour has kind of stayed with me too but possibly calmed down a little bit with age. For the majority of my life I've also been an attention seeker and did things purely to get attention from others. As I've got older more behaviours that are considered as impulsive have been added the the list, the main one being problematic internet use, I find that I just sit on the internet for hours on end even if I do have better things to do and then feel disappointed in myself which sometimes results in me hitting myself because I'm angry or frustrated, I also get restless and frustrated if I don't have access to the internet. I also suffer with bouts of insomnia and have done pretty much since birth. I think with my heart and make decisions ba
For years I have thought of myself as being depressed and "addicted " to the internet, but upon reviewing my own behaviour I actually feel that I could have problems with impulse control and these problems do effect my day-to-day life in many ways. Therefore, I am seeking support from this group as I feel it's a place where I can talk about such issues.