Yes the Inner Demons.I have fallen in love with the most wrong women for me available in the past. I don't know why I did it but I did. They all needed something.
Someone to take care of them or problems they needed help to overcome.
I have always been a sucker for someone in need I guess.
These relationships resulted in myself going through some very intense hurt and aggravation of which I will spare you the details.
One sided love was the result every time and after all was said and done I have come to have serious trust issues.
Inner demons if you will. They cause red flags to appear from nowhere and the resulting feelings are somewhat overwhelming at times, causing me to jump quickly to conclusions even though my brain tells me it is wrong. The only way to really explain such issues is that there are inner demons who are always looking for something that could possibly be a red flag. This makes me a very hard person to get close to..
I am sure it will be hard on anyone who tries.
Most of the time I am fine but when the demons start pointing I become someone else until my heart and brain fine a way to make me see the light. So I will take this moment to apologize to anyone who tries to get close to me. I will not be easy to understand.
BlueGeorgia 41-45, M 18 Responses 1 Jan 31, 2008